Tomorrow morning, I start my nasal spray (Synarel) and tomorrow night we start our shots. Our egg retrieval is just 12 days away, which seems so close, but yet so far away. I am realizing that I have high hopes of this working, as I have been freaking out lately as to how on earth I am going to manage working at home with a newborn. I suppose I would not be worried about that if I didn’t think it was going to work, right?
Calista is constantly talking about her “baby sister”. She will not settle for a boy because she “doesn’t like baby boys”. Oh boy. She’s so interested in reading right now, and can spell her name and “read” (recognize) a few words. She told me today she needs to learn to read so she can read to the baby. How cute is that?
It’s so sweet and exciting to hear all her plans she has for her baby sister, and it’s hard not to get too caught up in it, as we don’t even know if we will get pregnant, or if it will be a girl. But she sure is convinced! People say kids know these things, but she told me I was going to get a girl baby and a boy baby for my birthday, which obviously did not happen. I’ll just hope she’s fine tuned her radar this time. :)
If this IVF works, my due date will be December 20th. It would actually be perfect timing, as Skip gets two weeks off work for Christmas through New Years, so he could take a week paternity leave, then two weeks, and we’d have three weeks together as a new family and to figure things out. Then January would roll around, and I would be working with Calista home two days and a baby home with me and I would probably lose my mind, but for now — I’ll keep reminding myself that everything will work out. If I think about it too much, I just might have a panic attack.
Oh well, it’s late, I’m tired, and the database backup I was running is now over, so I am going to get back to work and then get to bed. Good night!
