Well, after writing my post last night, I decided to ask a colleague of mine for some advice. When I started my business three years ago, she hired me as a subcontractor without even knowing me. It turns out we are a lot alike and work well together, and she really helped me get my business off the ground. We’ve been friends ever since, and still work together on occasion. I emailed and asked her if she knew of anyone she could refer for as a subcontracter, and it just so happens that she is in need of more work right now and offered to be my subcontractor!

I can’t tell you how excited I am because I know her, I know her work and her skill set and I feel so much better already. We haven’t even talked details yet, but just knowing she’s willing and able is like a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders and I feel so much better. We’ll talk next week and work out some of the details but I’ve just felt so much better today knowing I’ve got someone to help me now.

I also made a conscious effort to do less work and spend more time with Calista today. Thankfully, my schedule doesn’t have anything urgent on it right now, so I was able to just be a mom for the day and that, too, felt great. I need to put more effort into making sure my days home with Calista are clear and I tihnk that will help with some of the mommy guilt I’ve been suffering from.

I looked at my hours for the month and I’ve put in 8.5 hours per workday this month. That’s over 40 hours a week, plus Calista is home with me 20 hours a week — no wonder I am stressed out! Hopefully, making some changes will help my stress level and everything will work out. I know it will — everything always works out the way it should, but as I said, I like to have a plan. :)

Anyhow, now that the subcontractor thing is falling into place, I really feel so much better and feel like I can move forward with a little less fear. I made arrangements with a friend to watch Calista during the egg retrieval next week and I have an ultrasound tomorrow — things are just moving right along. I just have to have faith.

Thank you for the replies to my post last night, I know it will work out, but hearing it from others helps so much. And Anna, I’ll check out the link you posted as well — sounds interesting!

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