Two days until the first trimester is over. Sadly, I don’t think it’s going to be some magical day where I stop spotting, feel great and life is roses. But hey, at least I will be that much closer to d-day!
Skip learned how to give me my IV meds yesterday. It’s pretty easy, and if it weren’t for the part at the end where you have to “flush” the line, I could probably do it myself. I just can’t do that part because it grosses me out. It’s not even gross or painful, it’s just this mental thing I have going on. That, and I’m a wuss.
Today I feel semi-human. I am out of bed and not throwing up. I have some bad reflux and certainly don’t feel fantastic, but I don’t feel like I want to die, either, so that’s good.
I can’t wait to feel better, though. I know this struggle is worth it, but it’s so hard. I feel bad for Calista, mostly — she’s been so good for me on Tuesdays and Thursdays when she’s home with me. She will lay in bed with me with a drink and snack and watch shows on TV while I rest. She plays in the living room while I lay on the cough. She naps with me. I feel so bad I haven’t been able to be more fun for her, but she’s so very good and understanding and I am so grateful for that. Hopefully I will start to feel better and be able to do more with her.
Anyhow, that’s it. I’m here, I’m alive and I’m going day by day for now. Just waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel!!!
The light is there! You will get to it faster than you expect. :hug:
I am glad you are starting to feel better. I am sure this is just the start,… just a few more steps and the light at the end of the tunnel will appear as soon as the second trimester gets going! ;)
Hopefully, you’ll be surprised by how much better you feel in about a week. At 12 and 13 weeks pg with my twins I felt a good deal worse than death warmed over. However, a few days before I hit 14 weeks it miraculously lifted. I had a few more tough days for the next few weeks, but it was tons better. I hope that you have the same experience.
I hope the light comes very soon!!