We’re Going to have Two Babies
No, I have not been living under a rock. I realize I am pregnant with twins (how could I forget? Oy!) but I’m just having one of those “wow” moments where I just stopped and thought — we are going to have a baby. Not one baby, but two babies. Wow.
I had so many days when I thought we’d never have another child. And now we will have two more. Sometimes, I can picture them and what it will be like, other times, I can’t even begin to imagine having babies in the house. I went through that with Calista, where I’d be able to imagine having a baby and then have moments of not being able to imagine it in the least. I don’t know if that even makes any sense.
Some days, I think about how great it will be, and other days, I wonder what we are getting ourselves into… like today when I am dead-to-the-world tired and am a little too short on patience for Calista when she gets wild or sassy. But I know that is greatly colored by my pain, discomfort and fatigue. I know that when I am no longer pregnant, things will be different. Yes, I will still be tired and have other issues to deal with, but I do look forward to being able to sit or lay down without great effort, or heck, even to speak a full sentence without losing my breath!
Then again, I will miss being pregnant as well. I will miss having them in my big belly, watching them move around and beat on me and each other. When Baby B gets the hiccups, I can actually see it on the outside, I get a little visible thump with each one. They either make him or his brother mad, because after each hiccup, I get a large thump on the other side. I figure either he’s mad, or he’s irritating Baby A and getting kicked. Poor guys!
I guess things are feeling bittersweet at the moment. I am hating all of the discomforts and problems of this pregnancy and looking forward to being “normal” again, and I look forward to bringing these babies home. At the same time, I will miss being pregnant, as I know this will be the last time, and I worry about the changes that are going to be coming into our home soon.
Sorry to be so boring tonight! I’ve just been thinking about it and thought I should put it in writing before the moment was replaced by the overwhelming need to pee or a bout of nasty reflux.
Pregnancy always seems a bit unreal to me too. I know there is a baby in there, but it isn’t “real” until I meet them in person. Makes complete sense to me. I understand also about trying to savor the pregnancy, but with all the discomforts, it’s hard. I imagine so much harder with a twin pregnancy. Keep blogging and saving those thoughts. (((hugs)))
Yes, all too soon your big bump will be a memory. If you are like me, you will look down and try to remember what it was like to have that large protrusion. As much as I was not a happy-pregnant-person, I still cried my eyes out after my last was born because I missed my belly so badly.
I am so excited to ‘meet’ your babies. What a happy beginning. :)
It is so amazing that you are this far along, Sommer! It has been a long, hard road and I’m so happy that you are finally going to get what you wished for! Good luck!
This isn’t boring Sommer! It is refreshing to see some inner thoughts that seem so mundane yet are so important at the same time.