I used to chat with Skip on the net way back ages when I was at uni, anyways, a couple of years back I got in touch with skip and he sent me your family website address. Well anyways, I have been reading your posts about your pregnancy, and although I am not pregnant, I can truly sympathise with you. Its never really easy being pregnant, let alone pregnant with twins. I didn’t have a very good pregnancy myself with my first child – it was hell for the first 6 months,and post pregnancy had too many complications to even mention. I have been yo-yoing about having another baby for a while now, but you know what – your story really inspires me to be brave and give it another go. Really if you can put up with so much, then you should be proud of yourself and don’t let others tell you any different. Its always easy to judge others when you arent in their shoes, so dont worry about the negative posts you may get!!!

I’ve been reading your story since you started this site, and look how far you’ve come – you may not feel it, but time’s flown so fast and you are nearly there. So just keep plodding along, and keep thinking about when you hold those two gorgeous boys in your arms – it will be worth everything you have gone through in the end.

Good luck, and all the best.

I understand your problems with Calista. Even though my physical problems haven’t been nearly as severe as yours, I often feel like I deserve a “Worst Mommy” award. Sheer exhaustion, plus sciatica, round ligament pain, backaches, hormonal stress, swollen legs, etc. just make me feel some days like I have nothing to give to my Lourie. She is the world to me, but it is all I can do some days to keep her fed… let alone entertained. My DH gets home from work, and she just lights up and throws herself at him, because she finally has someone to play with. She may enjoy puzzles and Candyland with mommy for a while, but a 3-yr-old needs to move too, ya know?

Our girls will survive… but I understand your feelings. It is hard not to be able to give yourself to your child.

You are definately in my thoughts and prayers these final weeks!

Thank you for posting all that you have about your journey. My husband and I have been married for almost 7 years and struggle with infertility too. We have been trying to get pregnant since we got married, but it just hasn’t happened. I went through the whole process of hormone testing, ultrasounds, clomid, and glucophage treatments trying to get pregnant and none of it worked. Finally about 2 years ago I convinced my husband to go to the doctor for a semen analysis. It came back with 0 sperm. The doctors said that we should just get a sperm donor and use AI. Not satisfied with that answer we went to see another Urologist, and another, until we found Dr. Buch. All of the other Urologist would just perform hormone tests and SA on my husband and they would all come back and say that we would not be able to have our own biological children and that we should start screening for sperm donors. Dr. Buch was the first one that had hope. He performed a biopsy on my husbands nether region (which took quite a bit of convincing to get my hubby to do that) and we got good new…..he has Sperm! The only downside is that it is stuck…and we didn’t know why. We scheduled an Epydidimovasostomy (like a vasectomy reversal) once inside they discovered that one of my husbands testes does not function at all, and the other functions, but not at a normal level. He has a congenital birth defect where his vasdefrens are blocked. The surgery re-routed the plumbing around the scarring so that they might get out. We are now 6 months post op, still no pregnancy, no sperm on the outside….so now I am starting to save for InVitro with TESE. I hadn’t given fundraisers a thought beyond selling what I could on eBay or selling my Persian kittens (which are for sale btw http://www.silipersians.com) to try to fund the procedure, but then I came across your website. If it worked for you, I hope it will help us! Your story has been very inspiring to me. It does not feel like such a lost cause. Fortunately my doctors only charge 8k for the entire procedure here in Texas. I know you are going through a lot right now, but it will all be worth it when you look at those beautiful boys! I hope God continues to bless you!

Thanks again!

Tiffany

Kerry.

PS Won’t Christmas be great in the Cronk house this year!! I’m jealous of having new babies around for the holidays!!

I hope the time flies and you make it as far as possible and those boys come out as healthy as can be!

Best wishes!