Eventually…
…there will be more to my day than trying to get babies to sleep, right?
I am so tired. I was up until 3:30 am working, and then up with the boys to feed them a couple of times last night and up for the day at 8:00 am. All I want to do is nap, and as tempted as I get when the boys are in their room, I know it will just set me further behind with my work. I have GOT to get more daylight work hours logged so I don’t have to stay up so late at night. I fell pretty short on hours last month, and short on hours means short on income, which we can NOT afford.
Ace still has days where he just will.not.sleep. I’ve been trying to get him to sleep since 1:30 pm, and it’s now almost 4:30 pm. I think he just fell asleep, but I am sure it will last all of 30 minutes. Ah, there he goes now!!
I’ve tried his bed, his swing, putting him in the Moby wrap and keeping him close to me… he wants no parts of anything — except the boob. If I give him the boob, he will be out in half a second, but unfortunately, I have two other kids and a job and I can’t have little man napping on my boob 3 times a day for 2 hours a stretch. I just don’t know what to do with him! He will seriously hold out for boob for hours… he just won’t sleep until it’s booby time.
If he falls asleep on the boob, there’s no “transfer him to his bed” — he wakes up and freaks out as soon as booby is gone. I need to find a prosthetic boob for him. I think he needs a serious intervention.
In addition to that, I have a cold (as does everyone in the house) and now I feel sick to my stomach. Ugh.
Skip and I had a little bicker because he made some comment about me being silly for staying up so late, which really ticked me off because I stay up so late because it’s the ONLY chance I get to work uninterrupted. When he gets home from work, he makes dinner (which I am very thankful for, mind you) so I deal with the kids. If the boys are sleeping or quiet, I can try to sneak off, but he doesn’t keep tabs on Calista so then she interrupts me every 10 seconds and I can’t get anything done. I would just LOVE LOVE LOVE to have some time where I could go off somewhere and work without having to assist with the kids.
I know we talk about it a lot on ConnectedMoms.com, but what is it about guys that they have to have help with the kids if they have to do something, but us moms are able (and expected) to do everything WHILE caring for the kids? Even if he were to take on full baby responsibility so I could have some daylight uninterrupted work time, I still have to nurse them every 2-3 hours, so there’s pretty much no winning.
At first, going back to work seemed easy. Now? Not so much. I just want to cry. And sleep. Maybe not in that order, though. And now Ace is screaming again. I think I’ll cry first.
