11 dpo

I thought it wouldn’t matter if today’s test was BFN, because I’ve had so many and what’s one more, right?  And, for the most part, I haven’t felt like my other tests were BFP anyway, I always seem to get faint lines every cycle.

But I guess, deep down, I really did think I’d get a BFP for my birthday.  And when I didn’t, well, it hit a lot harder than I thought it would.

I really don’t think this time is any different than any other time, and that’s ok.  We gave it our best shot, but some things just aren’t meant to be and we have to pick ourselves up and move on.

I’m not sure what the next few days will be like, if I will test any more or what.  I just need some time to myself.

I really appreciate how supportive and positive everyone has been, but I am going to close this entry to replies.  I just don’t want to think about it any more for today.

Thanks for understanding.